I can’t sleep. Actually, I am often dead tired but I can’t seem to get much quality sleep these days.  Yes I am overwhelmed with few things, the usual work related stress, the constant mess in my house and the never ending chores that I have to keep up or catch up. But I think the main reason is that I am following too closely the American politics since the new administration has taken over the White House.

I can’t even get myself to say his name, D.T.  Everything that has occurred is no surprise to me; he is simply following his campaign promises. But his demeanor is very disturbing. From his executive order on travel ban, to his unfounded accusation of Barack Obama tapping his phone, the manner in which he carries out himself is just inappropriate or vulgar. I don’t tolerate such behaviour with my kids, why would the nation allow it in a President, the ultimate leader of the United States?

I know I should be grateful our Prime Minister Justin Trudeau is nothing like D.T., that he supports tolerance of differences, respects for multiculturalism and promotes inclusiveness among Canadians. Yet we are not immune from our neighbour – hate crime has increased, anti-Semitic movements are making headlines and actions stem from Islamophobia have led to loss of innocent lives.

My insomnia is caused by something much deeper. There is a sense of unrest that is being infiltrated in our society. No amount of Ativan or other hypnotic will fix my insomnia.  I suspect many individuals experiencing insomnia are also going through some uneasy feelings or emotions, stemming from something much deeper that they need to sort out.

There is no easy solution to my insomnia. But the first step is to acknowledge the cause and the second step is to do something about it. I may not be able to storm to the White House to remove D.T. But I can voice my dismay over him and his administration. I can stand up against hate, injustice and intolerance of any faith or culture.  I can reach out to the victims of hate crime to offer my support for them. I can openly condemn hateful actions or hurtful words.

Maybe none of these actions will make any difference in the world. Or maybe it will. But at least it will help me manage my own insomnia.

And that’s good enough for now.


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My name is Cynthia Leung and I am a practicing pharmacist in Kingston Ontario, Canada. This blog is for me to share my ideas, opinions and perspectives on how medications are used in our health care system. Note that these posts are my own opinions and do not represent the opinions of my current or former employers and / or organizations that I may belong to. Any possible case scenarios described in my posts would be modified to maintain patient confidentiality. This blog is not a platform for professional advise for patients or health care providers and the content is not meant to support any clinical decisions or replace professional opinions. Also the images are either taken or created by the author, or adapted with permission. I hope you will enjoy reading my posts!

9 thoughts on “Insomnia”

  1. There has been a call to send pink slips to the white house informing DT that he’s being fired, as well as sending copies to our Senators and Congressional leaders to begin impeachment proceedings. Everything needs to be mailed by 3/15 in the hope that there will be a worldwide deluge of post cards delivered to the white house that will send DT over the edge. If you’d care to join us, the address to use is:

    President (for now) Donald J. Trump
    The White House
    1600 Pennsylvania Avenue NW
    Washington, DC 20500

    The movement’s posting is as follows (if you want the backstory):

    On March 15th, each of us will mail Donald Trump a postcard that publicly expresses our opposition to him. And we, in vast numbers, from all corners of the world, will overwhelm the man with his unpopularity and failure. We will show the media and the politicians what standing with him — and against us — means. And most importantly, we will bury the White House post office in pink slips, all informing Donnie that he’s fired.

    Each of us — every protester from every march, each congress calling citizen, every boycotter, volunteer, donor, and petition signer — if each of us writes even a single postcard and we put them all in the mail on the same day, March 15th, well: you do the math.

    No alternative fact or Russian translation will explain away our record-breaking, officially verifiable, warehouse-filling flood of fury. Hank Aaron currently holds the record for fan mail, having received 900,000 pieces in a year. We’re setting a new record: over a million pieces in a day, with not a single nice thing to say.

    So sharpen your wit, unsheathe your writing implements, and see if your sincerest ill-wishes can pierce Donald’s famously thin skin.
    Prepare for March 15th, 2017, a day hereafter to be known as #TheIdesOfTrump

    Write one postcard. Write a dozen! Make sure to send one to your Senators and Congressional leaders asking that they support the constitutional process for impeaching a man dedicated to destroying America from within.

    Take a picture and post it on social media tagged with #TheIdesOfTrump ! Spread the word! Everyone on Earth should let Donnie know how he’s doing. They can’t build a wall high enough to stop the mail.

    Then, on March 15th, mail your messages to:
    President (for now) Donald J. Trump
    The White House
    1600 Pennsylvania Avenue NW
    Washington, DC 20500

    It might just be enough to make him crack.
    Pass this on.


  2. Hi Cynthia! I could have written this entire post. I relate so much. I suffer from insomnia, and of course, it could be related to the cancer medicine I take (Tamoxifen), but I agree there is more to this. Like you, I am experiencing a lot of stress over uncertainties and work-related stuff. I’ve been advised to handle one “battle” at a time, but the problem is they are all important, and in some ways, affect each other.

    Don’t get me started on d.t. I’ve been trying to avoid reading more news or talk about it with people that I know. Yes, I actually know people who voted for this thing and it is disappointing, because I am both an immigrant and a cancer patient — two topics d.t. is tackling (in the wrong way!). My hope is that he will be removed, but we all know the rest of his administration is just as bad, if not worse. I am hoping the damage he is planning on causing, doesn’t fully develop.

    I am a fan of Ativan (my BFF). It helped me during cancer treatments and it still helps me before my oncology appts. But it hasn’t made a different in my sleep. One day at a time is all we can do, I guess. But out of all the issues I am facing, I say sleep is the most important one. How else am I going to be able to face all the other issues if my body is too tired? I don’t want to get sick. I too need to find a way to do better and focus more on my health and well-being. I wish you well. xx

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    1. Thank you for reading my post! Ativan does have a role to help people with a calming effect but I just dislike people prescribing it like water for insomnia. I am glad you find it helpful. That is the most important feedback to determine if the drug is working or not. There are some side effects to keep in mind but it is all a balancing act. I hope you get your sleep. Sleep helps to repair our body and fight for what we need to fight… so having a good night sleep is like a dose of good medicine for everyone! Have a great day!


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